You can do nothing
or you can do something
If you do something, you will be told you are doing it imperfectly...
The only alternative is to do nothing, and nowadays that's exactly what nobody needs...
-Amanda Palmer
Okay you all, so here it is...the truth. These past several months I have been having an aching time, a freakin, annoying inner and outer battle with getting my solo performances up and running again. It feels like a long shot ‘tho I know I have done this before and will do it many more times.
The fact of the matter is, I, like many of you, doubt myself quite often. Fortunately, the creative spirit, or universe juice (as Kung-fu Panda would say:), has a hold on me and I on it..because I LOVE making music. I love MUSIC! I love SINGING and I LOVE singing MY OWN ORIGINAL MUSIC!
I love the FEELING of sound in my throat, in my body. It feels like breathing. It feels like air. (I guess my mom was right to make the meaning of my name "of the air":).
But what to do with the doubt? Why does that good feeling have to be interrupted by a crappy reality? It’s like waking from a good dream or vacation ending too soon. All I know is performance is not final. It IS just another practice. And there are TOOLS (hint hint) or practices one can collect to serve your inner demons when they start gnawing at your insides.
Over the next few months I will be offering a delicious buffet for your inner demons and all of you art lovers alike. I hope to see you somewhere online or in person soon:).
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